I know that in order for me to like feel truly comfortable with myself I have to be open with others about me being gay but its just so hard. I've spent so much of my life feeling different and now I feel like I usually fit in? Theres just this comfortableness in pretending to be straight that I don't want to let go of. Still, its time to figure it out because I don't wanna be like this foreverrr. I'm privileged enough to have friends and family that don't care. Guess I just have to work on myself. I didn't think I'd be 20 years old and still having such a hard time with it.