So, as usual..I'm into TV. You know everyone says I'm an alco but in the end I'm pretty sure TV is more my thing. I've been watching a lot of That 70's show and I remember watching that shit when I was like..thirteen? I don't know, but I remember *knowing* that when I went to highschool I would be Donna (less dykey..no bandanas) and I would find a boyfriend like Eric and we would get engaged our senior year and we'd be that engaged couple in highschool. Oh jesus, I was so freaking cute. I totally think that when I turn twenty I'm going to live in New York and live like the gang in Friends, and hopefully in my thirties it will get When Harry met Sallyesque. Which is completely weird because I have like an aversion to relationships that like, even concerns my family. Yeeeee basing my life on TV shows.

Its weird dude, I got held back and I'm not that upset about it. I mean, I'm kind of upset. I imagine its only going to get worse when everyone starts actually going away to college. I don't know I'm more embarrassed than sad. Being a super senior is pretty embarrassing. I'm pretty sure I've done worse things. I kind of want to go to FIT for illustration, I don't know how possible it is but I might as well apply. Its cheap as shit and it has dorms. I've always kind of wanted to go to New York anyhow, very cliche of me.. But I've liked New York since I was like seven not since I was like a thirteen year old angsty bitch.

I get off of drugtesting in exactly three weeks. My moms still bitching even though I've passed three months worth of them. Not in my usual overdose of water/vitamin B concoction either. I actually stopped smoking weed. I've gained ten pounds, and besides that not much has changed, despite all of my fucking social workers telling me about the ~beauty of recovery.~ I might quit for good though, I think my bff is coming back from rehab actually clean. I'd just think its grimy to smoke when you're friend got out of rehab. Everytime I see someone smoking I want to like grab it out of their hands but when I just chilling I'm like "Nahhhhhhhhh I don't need this."

I'm so rambly today its just like I don't know I'm fucking watch Tyra I'm bored as shit. Oh god I love Tyra she starts mad shit I just cant get over it. Holy shit this show about lesbians is making me die. You guys need to watch this shit its on youtube its female crushes. I can understand why people are falling this bitch she's fierce as shit and hilarious omg.. I'm totally just remembering my ridiculous crush on Kim from ANTM. I always get so frantic in the winter I'm not sure why its just that I feel like I'm on some sort of subtle meth.